Love Stinks
Reflections and advice on relationships, life, love and the meaning of it all…

Love Stinks

October 31

October 30th, 2007 . by TheGirl


I perceived the outline of your breasts
through your Hallowe’en costume
I knew you were falling in love with me
because no other man could perceive
the advance of your bosom into his imagination
It was a rupture of your unusual modesty
for me and me alone
through which you impressed upon my shapeless hunger
the incomparable and final outline of your breasts
like two deep fossil shells
which remained all night long and probably forever

- Leonard Cohen, Poem 17

Let Go

October 20th, 2007 . by TheGirl

You’re making it harder,
I don’t know what to do,
I go speechless,
Every time I talk to you,

We say things,
We know we’ll regret,
But that doesn’t stop us,
We end up always sorry,

I’m tired of crying,
Because every time we talk,
On the inside,
I’m slowly dying,

I don’t want to lose you,
But I don’t think I have a choice,
I wonder if our love is true,
Or is it all just words,

I know it’s hard,
And ‘friends’ are easier for now,
But will there ever
Be time for more, I wonder,

I think I have to let go,
In fact, I know I have to,
But I don’t want to show,
What I feel inside,

I want to hide from life,
From the truth,
Hide from the reality,
Because it hurts too much,

I used to think,
That forever existed,
But now I realize,
Life’s too twisted,

It never goes the way you planned,
It has to ruin your dreams,
And no one will ever understand,
Why life played this little game,

It made us fall in love,
So that we thought it was a gift from above,
But things have changed,

It’s too late,
We can’t change fate,
The time has come,
For us to move on,

We can’t do anything,
To stop this dreaded feeling,
Pain is all it can bring,
But we’re slowly healing,

Nothing to say,
But it’s okay,
We’ll think about each other,
Every day,

There will always be a part of me,
That longs for you,
But I will have to learn to hide it,
Because truth is, I can’t have you,

No matter what I try to do.

I’m Not Sure

October 20th, 2007 . by TheGirl

What if our love fades away,
What do we do,
What do we say,

What if our love just disappears,
Will that help us overcome our biggest fears,
Or will it only bring us to tears.

How do we stay ‘just friends’,
When this is the end,
It was all pretend,

And why do we have to go,
Through this alone,
The pain stays unknown,

Where has the love gone to,
My heart’s in two,
What have we gotten ourselves into,

A fake smile in place,
I can’t erase
The things we said,

And why do we keep on trying
We end up crying,
Our love is dying,

When will we finally,
Realize there’s no ‘you and me’,
We’re not meant to be,

I’m tired of this pain,
I can’t explain,
What you’re doing to me,

Are the feelings true,
Or will we find,
Someone new,

I’m not sure,
If this love is pure,
Is there a cure,

I don’t know,
If we’ll make it through,
Or just end up feeling blue.

You’re Hurting Me

October 20th, 2007 . by TheGirl

I think you don’t love me,
But you say you do,

You say we are meant to be,
But I don’t believe you,

You want to be just friends,
Because it’s easier for now,

You think there will be time later to be more,
But one day I might not want to take it anymore,

I’m tired of saying you’re not hurting me,
When I know you are,

Why can’t you see,
I’m not okay,

Even when I say I’m not,
You always change the subject,

I try to pretend you do care,
But you’re never there,

No matter how much I need you,
You haven’t got a clue,

I can’t sleep at night,
I try to think it’s all right,

When you break my heart,
When everything falls apart,

You promised,
But things change,

Promises are made to be broken,
The pain stays unspoken,

I’m tired of doing this,
But I don’t want to let go,

You need to make a decision,
And you need to make it now,

Do you want to be with me or not,
You need to ask yourself,

Because I’m not playing this game,
Things will never be the same,

No matter how much I want them to,
I can’t keep pretending any longer,

I want to run away,
Far from the pain,

But I don’t want to get hurt once again.

I Want to Go Back

October 20th, 2007 . by TheGirl

I wish I could go back,
To when it was so much easier,
Remember when we always used to laugh,
How we talked…
I knew I could come to you with anything,
And you’d be there,
No matter what,
Remember when we would fight and laugh about it, like 5 minutes later…
I miss that.
We keep saying all these things that don’t mean a thing,
To you or me.
We keep apologizing,
Just to make things right,
Though, it just leaves me,
Crying all through the night,
I want to go back,
When we could say anything and still be okay the next day…
I want the pain and the hurting to stop…
I want to be okay.
I want to be happy,
I want you to be happy…
I want to go back,
But that’s not possible, is it?

Would You

October 20th, 2007 . by TheGirl

Do you care?
Do you love me?
Would you be there for me?
Would you give your life for mine?
Would you guide me through it all,
Not once letting me fall?
Would you make me
Realize we’re meant to be?
Would you promise to never hurt me,
To make sure I was okay,
To make sure I wouldn’t cry all night,
Would you hold me tight,
And say “it’s all right”?
Would you be there every day,
Just to see me smile?
To make it all worth-while?
Would you love me like no other,
Stay with me forever and
Never say never?
Would you try to make sure
I wouldn’t cry?
Would you never say goodbye?

What If

October 20th, 2007 . by TheGirl

What if we’re not meant to be?
What if we’re just too blind to see,
This is hurting both you and me?
What do we do,
If those feelings aren’t true?
Where do we go,
To let it all out?
Where can we just show our real selves,
Not caring who’s around?
How did we let it all pass by,
Without ever wondering about the future?
Only cared about now,
We lived in the moment,
But now that it’s passed,
Where do we go from here?
Do we live in our fantasy,
Or accept the reality?
Maybe it’s not always going to be “you and me”
Maybe we have to see,
We might not always be
Together,
Sometimes life happens,
Even though, I would wait for you forever,
I will never say never,
We should go our separate ways,
And see if life brings us back together,
I will count the days,
When we can finally say “I love you”
And mean it.

October 1

October 1st, 2007 . by TheGirl

Under the harvest moon,
When the soft silver
Drips shimmering
Over garden nights,
Death, the gray mocker,
Comes and whispers to you
As a beautiful friend
Who remembers.

Under the summer roses
When the flagrant crimson
Lurks in the dusk
Of the wild red leaves,
Love, with little hands,
Comes and touches you
With a thousand memories,
And asks you
Beautiful, unanswerable questions.

- Carl Sandburg, Under the Harvest Moon